We had a guest speaker in class today who made me so freakin' excited about art.
Growing up I was always known as the artist. In elementary school I was always among the top artists in my class and I knew that when I grew up I wanted to be an "artist". Then I graduated from high school and took a two year diploma of Fine Arts at college. I discovered that there were lots of other people who had grown up being the artist, and suddenly I wasn't the best any more. Not only was I not the best but I found that my crafty style wasn't really being accepted by my instructors. Apparently "crafty" is a bad thing in fine art school.
I got my diploma and had a variety of jobs (including working at a craft store, a chocolate shop, a scrapbook store, and a credit union) while I tried to figure out what to do with my life. That's when I discovered the Illustration and Design program that I am currently in online. I put together my portfolio (luckily I had lots of work because of my diploma of Fine Arts) and applied. There were more than 100 applicants and I was one of only 30 accepted that year for the three year program. That made me feel pretty kiss-ass. Until I started my first day and found that once again, there were a lot of people who are much better drawers/painters than me. I was a bit nervous to show my crafty style, but when I finally did I was surprised to find that this time my instructors actually liked it. I found that when I tried to do what everyone else was doing my work kind of sucked. When I followed my heart and picked up my scissors or needle and thread, I made some pretty cool stuff.
In second year we were given computers and started learning how to use Photoshop, Illustrator, InDesign, and more. We were told to focus on either design or illustration. I fell in love with typography and decided that after graduation I wanted to work for a design firm (since my illustration skills weren't really up to par with some of my classmates). I had a two month internship at a local design firm that has won numerous awards, and had a wonderful time. But my heart was missing something. It's not that I don't love design - I do. It's just that I don't really want to spend my life making ads for cheese companies.
Now that I am in my final year of school we are starting to put together our brand and portfolios. I have been having a really hard time trying to decide what I want to do when I graduate. A part of me would like to get a position at a design firm where I will get a steady pay cheque, be able to go on maternity leave, etc. Another (and much bigger) part of me wants to create beautiful works of art, create a line of greeting cards, show my work in galleries, make patterns for paper and fabric, and follow my heart. It's practical vs the unknown. Until today I was set on doing the practical.
The speaker we had today graduated from Harvard in Psychology. Then he decided he wanted to make art, so he did. He created beautiful works of art from paper and they were shown in galleries. He made GI Joes out of wood. He and his wife moved to New York and freelanced together. He designed collateral for a coffee shop and then was asked to do the interior design for it too. He created a paper city for a music video. He made a video for a fashion designer. He made a book. Then curated an artshow and made another book.
His presentation inspired me.
I love being inspired.
So what's my plan now? Well I don't really have one. I'm just going to start making whatever my heart tells me to make and see where it takes me.